Finding joy in the little things is not difficult for me. I am grateful for every second I get to spend with my boys watching cartoons and singing songs in the car. I do not take for granted any of the time John and I get to spend together, just us. I remember when I was about eight years old, and a neighbor cut down an enormous old cotton wood tree. For years, I would visit that old stump just to sit and think about what a loss it was to have that tree gone. I appreciated that old tree. The little things haven’t gone unnoticed in my world.
However, I have demons to deal with. Despite completely knowing and fully understanding how blessed I am and how good I have it, I have dark days. These days are nothing new. The only thing that is different about these dark days, is that now I don’t suffer through them alone as I did in my younger years. Now, my family has to endure these down times with me. Isn’t it weird how a person can feel so unhappy while their world seems quite free of problems?
Last week, as I was feeling sorry for myself, the boys and I were walking down the alley towards their daycare. I noticed something lying in the gravel. It was a bracelet with the word “Joy” stamped into the metal. Every day, I walked by that bracelet and was reminded of the joy that is in everything. That bracelet that I am sure someone is missing is a great reminder to stop and find those things around us for which to be joyful. To remind myself to find the joy, here is a list of things that have brought me joy recently:
- Today, as I was brushing my teeth, I could hear my three year old son, who was still lying in his bed, singing “Happy Birthday” to nobody in particular.
- My almost-two year old fell asleep on the way to work this morning. When I went to get him out of his seat, he had taken off his shoes and socks as usual. His little chubby feet are still so precious, and I am so glad God entrusted me with these little boys.
- My husband turns 30 tomorrow! This year marks eight years together. It is unbelievable. I am so glad to have him in my life. He is funny and kind (and not too hard on the eyes!). Happy Birthday, Johnny!
I pray that each of you don’t have to spend much time in dark days. I pray that you are able to find the joy around you, because it is there. Sometimes we just have to open our eyes and look, even into the gravel paths upon which we are walking.
Thanks for reading,
The Displaced City Girl